(I dismissed those straight away for fear of being caught). Where had it been all my life? Gay guys openly advertising for meets. After around three seconds of searching I found the most popular website. I wondered if perhaps I should skip the MFM and MMF stage all together and find a gay website to search. Even though some of them look like Mr and Mrs Greasy Trailer Park Hippo, they are mainly after trim, young couples that look like they belong in Dynasty. This last one seemed pretty unlikely though.įor what seemed like ages I couldn’t get or find the right couple and after only a few days realised that most swinging couples don’t want single, slightly overweight, hairy, 43 year old guys joining their nights of passion. I naively thought that it would be easier if a woman was present.īeing quite nervous of male contact, I thought perhaps a MFM might be the best way to start, then an MMF and finally I could reach my goal of MM, MMM or even MMMMMM! In the end at 43 years old, I decided to fulfil my fantasy and finally took the plunge by joining a swinging website. Even as a young teen I remember the secret urges. I don’t know why and probably never will, but the nights I have stayed up late and masturbated to gay videos or stories would be countless. However, I have also always been drawn to gay sex. I have always tried to be a faithful loving husband and father.